On the intense journey of self-discovery, I set out to shed the parts of myself shaped by trauma. Each hardship left its mark: childhood physical abuse made me a fighter fueled by anger, the suicides of my father and sister left a deep wound of abandonment, and sexual abuse led me down a path of confusion, repeated patterns and struggling to believe love was safe. In trying to unlearn these patterns, I discovered that letting go of one form of harm sometimes gave rise to another – my release of physical aggression opened the door to mental manipulation. My inner darkness became both my challenge and my survival tool, a struggle many of us know all too well.

 

I came to understand that darkness planted by others can take root deeply within us. Over time, our actions—shaped by that shadow—allow it to grow until it influences everything we do. At certain points in my life, vengeance felt good—it became almost an art form. But over time I realized that the satisfaction I felt wasn’t about anyone else; it was my own pain needing to be soothed. That anger, that urge for revenge, was just my inner wound screaming out for attention.

 

This is the battleground of transformation. The masks we wear are challenged by the people we love, the people we clash with, and even those we barely know. Each encounter forces us to confront who we truly want to be.​ I knew I had to find a way to outrun my own mind, which seemed absolutely impossible. The momentum was fast—and toxic. I’d say 90% of my thoughts were negative, especially after the suicide of my little sister.

 

For the next 15 years, I dedicated myself to understanding how to harness the momentum of my mind and redirect those destructive patterns. That’s when I discovered the power of rhythm, the power of movement, and the power of strategic wordplay. I learned how to bypass the part of my mind that called “bullshit” on every positive change I tried to make.

 

Want to work on self-love? My mind would say, “Nobody loves you.” Want to build a business? “Nothing ever happens for you. Who is going to take you seriously?” I had to find a way to silence that voice if I ever wanted to experience what others seemed to—and at minimum, just become a better version of myself.

 

I’ve mastered rewiring negative thought patterns. Not to be comedic about it, but sometimes I’m just like, “Oh my God, get this Mr. Rogers crap out of my head!” What I know now is, the way you think determines how you feel, how you feel determines how you act, and how you act determines the results of your life. It’s much better to have a Mr. Rogers kind of day than a Freddy Krueger kind of day.

 

My programs work fast. They transform you from the inside out. What you do with that transformation is your choice—but I promise this: I will rewire those negative thought patterns.

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Through my journey, I’ve also realized that strengthening our spiritual selves has a ripple effect on the world. Healing ourselves doesn’t just change our own lives—it lifts the collective consciousness. Every step we take toward self-discovery contributes to a larger evolution, reminding us that we are all connected in this process.